CAME THOMAS
Ka.Naa.Su’s Novel THOMAS VANDHAAR
Translated into English by latha ramakrishnan
CHAPTER 2
My name is Vadhoolan.
Many a time have I wondered as to why I
was named Vadhoolan and called so. There are also those who address me as Vadhoolaa,
Vaadhoo and ‘Thambi’ and so on.
I do not like this name in any form. There
was one called Vadhoola Maharishi. That I have come in that lineage is one
reason. Whether any such person called Vadhoola Maharishi really existed
– that itself is not known. As far as I know, nowhere in Vedas, Upanishads or
in any proven and accepted origins [rishimoolangal] we come across any such
name. But, father says that as I have come in this lineage he has given me this
name. My father is not at all sensible, I think.
By now you would have guessed that I am
born a Brahmin. That those who make much ado about Gothram, lineage and all are
mostly Brahmins, is a known fact to all.
Many a seer and others have asked the
question whether ‘Brahminicality’ comes
by mere birth itself. Those great sages, born of Upanishads, the Jain
Munipangas called Men of Religion and Theerthangaas, Gauthama Buddha have all
asked this question and given various answers.
I asked father. There came no answer from
him to this query. Anger alone erupted. I can’t regard him as a Brahmin.
When this being the case, how can I regard myself as one..?
“Hei you, why are you thus roaming around
with all and sundry, leaving off the learning and chanting of Vedas? How are
you going to earn a good name in this world and live?”, - so asks my father in response.
When he says that I wander in the company
of all and sundry, I know who he has in mind.
In the vicinity I have only one dear
friend. It is said that he is born of some ‘low-caste’. Like my name is given
to me after my ‘gothram’ he is also given his name after his caste and creed.
Except him, I have no other close companion. Being and chatting with him, as if
observing as to how many varieties of human forms and faces are there in
people, going around the market-place, bazaar-road, places inhabited by human
species has become almost a full-time job for the past two or three years. I
derive a sense of satisfaction out of this.
How come such a friendship and bondage has
come into being, is indeed a surprise even to my own self. He, this Valluvan,
is five or six years elder to me. As for me, I am a complete stranger when it
comes to Learning. Somehow I would recite by heart those manthras and slokas
taught by father, rhythmically. Don’t know their meanings. But, somehow,
all the manthras and slokas are known to Valluvan. Not only that, he knows
their meanings too. When I told this to my father, do you know what he said?
“Scoundrel, sinner he is, learning manthras and Sanskrit slokas. Is he telling
their meanings too? He is bound to go astray. And you, who have joined hands
with him will also follow suit”, said he.
I have no wish to become ‘something’ in
father’s interpretation of those terms. Not worrying about this, I am roaming
around, with Valluvan.
When we two go along the streets, if
someone happens to see us they take only him to be a Brahmin and me as a
no-Brahmin. I have no regrets at this. In fact, with his knowledge, humility,
mental-strength and good habits, I too consider and regard Valluvan as a true
Brahmin! Valluvan never uses the term ‘Brahmin’. He would say ‘Andhanan’. Only
he who, not by birth but through his conduct, is a noble soul, is Andhanan –
says my good friend.
That my grandfather never deviated from
the path of Virtue and Morality, they say. I do not know that. But, my father
is an amoral person in all aspects. Particularly, in his lust for another man’s
woman, he has no equal at all. Indeed there is some magic in him which lures
wives of other men.
Some men who didn’t fear this power of his
– the husbands of some of the women lured by him – had given him sound
thrashing too, to weaken his alluring effect. My father’s mother – even while
being in her death-bed, called me and, before her life-breath stopped, said:
“don’t go astray like your father, Vaadhoolaa….this is my only prayer…”
What for people are born? Why do they die?
I asked my father.
“Who can say ‘why’ and ‘what’? we should
never ask why. Fate. God has destined so” – replied father.
The next day I asked Valluvan the same
question. “Man starts moving
towards Death right from the moment he is born. We refer to Utility[Use] and
Time, as Time. We should live our Life, not feeling sad whenever Death
confronts us. The use of your Birth need not be known to others. There is no
necessity that it should be known to you”.
In a way this was also an unsatisfactory
answer only. For the query ‘why’ there was no answer. But, it seemed to give,
to some extent, the meaning of both Birth and Death.
“My father says it is fate” – said I.
“True, there is that thing called Fate
too. It is fate that decides the quality and course of Life, quality of
Death and that which goes beyod Death”, said Valluvan.
I always think that my friend Valluvan
lives in a world which is built extensively of words, where nothing else is
real. If he begins to converse, sweet beautiful words come out of him. All
those words are familiar too. Apart from Sanskrit slokas and manthraas, the
language of Thamizh too comes to Valluvan in a spontaneous and beautiful
manner. Where did he learn? When? I asked him directly.
Easily, without getting angry, he
answered. “Thamizh comes to me
by constantly listening and hearing my mother speak. I learnt Sanskrit from
Aaladhi Naayanaar. From the ‘jewish’ merchant Ezekial who has come to stay in
Mylapore I am learning about the language Hebrew and the people’s habits and
behaviour. I am now going to Ezekial’s house only. If you want you can also come”.
To Ezekial’s house? Will they allow
Valluvan to enter into the brand new mansion? I had stood facing it, gazing at
it with awe and wonder. A huge, brand new bungalow. During day time its
entrance would always be crowded with people going in and coming out of the
mansion.
At the gates, there are always some four
or five ‘vasthaadhs’[men of gigantic built] standing, guarding the palatial
building. Goods and articles from very many a land, costing too high, are
forever brought to the bungalow and taken out of it. At least one half of those
boats which come sailing in the Sea for fifteen to thirty ‘Naazhigai’ a day and
stand in a row providing a pleasing sight are said to belong to Ezekiel. I have
heard them say that some two or three ships which would stand there with the
anchor laid and start sailing with their sail spread that push them forward
with the help of the wind also belonged to him.
There has spread a rumour in our locality
that, for all these affluence he is comparatively a new-comer to this land
and to the filed of business and that when he came here he had but only a
little money with him and that, with the help of kith and kin and fellow
Hebrews in various countries he bought and sold things, earning profits and
thus, within a year he had become a millionaire. When he came he had come
alone only. But now he has a family. He has got two sons and three daughters. I
know that the girls with their large eyes and sharp nose look very beautiful,
and, the two sons, tall and with looks and activities that are peculiar to the
Hebrews are slowly turning into big-shots in our place. One son’s –
the eldest _ name is David. Don’t know the name of the second son. Likewise, I
know the name of one of the daughters. The youngest called Miriam is very
brave. Without any reservation or hesitation as to what to speak to whom she
would easily pick up a conversation with almost anyone. In this area, women
driving a vehicle is a very common sight. Tying two horses, as is the existing
fashion of our place, in the cart when she was going alone one day, to bring
someone from somewhere, the local thug called Maadan, thinking that a sixteen
year old girl, being alone was a good chance not to be missed, blocked the way
and had said something, it seems. Whether Miriam could understand his Thamizh
or not – she could interpret the motive behind his action. She brought him down
with the help of the horse-ship and beat him black and blue, leaving him
bleeding all over. There was none in our place who didn’t praise her for her courage.
This incident had earned Ezekial more name and fame than all his wealth could
ever hope to offer him. The title like tag that he is Miriam’s father has
enhanced his pride and glory.
Significantly, wherever and on whatever
occasion Vaadhoolan, i.e., me, happens to see the girl called Miriam, his
heart-beats would gain momentum. There arises in me a different kind of
momentum of the heartbeats when I see Valluvan’s wife Vasuki. Vasuki cannot be
compared with Miriam and called beautiful. But then, she is endowed with the
skill of creating and preserving peace in her countenance, eyes, words and her
surroundings. It seemed to me that in the same way, but as against that, there
is that a magic in Mirium to turn the atmosphere charged.
I don’t know whether such feelings are
there in me alone. If asked, Valluvan would answer, but, somehow I felt shy of
asking.
That there never could arise any occasion
which would in some way bring together Miriam and myself, is known to me in all
certainty. I am a very poor Brahmin boy. Not even having the academic
qualification and knowledge required for one to claim himself
a Brahmin. Miriam is from an alien land. A girl with different habits and
unorthodox practices, i.e., in our view. Further, one who belongs to a rich
household. Enough if she just moves her little finger – there would be thousand
young men following her footsteps.
Yet, I cannot help thinking that she did
notice me on one or two occasions. And, it seems that it is something that
gives me satisfaction.
The other day – recently only – what did
Valluvan say?
‘Does love have bolt that shuts one out?
Can it be true? Is my quickening heart beats, Love?” I myself cannot say for
sure.
Now my friend asks me to go with him to
the mansion where Miriam is. Will it bring about a new beginning? Will it
indeed happen?”, - Desire urges me.
But, I am afraid too. It so happens that
doing something and so being misunderstood and so forced to face humiliation –
how to face such a situation? True, Brahmins are to some extent brave people
only, having the heart to carry out a job without fearing anything. To that
extent I am also a Brahmin. Further, Valluvan is also there… Can cope with the
situation…
“May I also come with you?”, I asked
Valluvan.
“Who said that you shouldn’t ? if someone
says so I will tackle it. If you want to come, come. Disbelieving the stranger
is deep-rooted in us. But, Ezekial is no stranger. For, some people, especially
for some individuals there is the quality which makes them one with any place
and the native of any land and atmosphere. Such persons look familiar amidst
any people and in one and all surroundings. In Hebrews – they call themselves
Jews – this endearing quality is a little more striking. And, in Ezekial it is
especially significant”, said Valluvan.
“Have you talked to that chap?” – asked I.
“With that chap? No, it is wrong. He is
very much an elderly person in age. Very much experienced. So, I can think of
him only as ‘that gentleman’. Not only with him; but also with his wife,
daughters, sons and the servants I haven’t spoken… in this place it is this
family that I consider most affectionate and they are real friends and
well-wishers.”
“I can’t help feeling somewhat
embarrassed”, said I.
“lLast Sunday when I was in their house,
Ezekial’s third daughter addressed me as your friend and even enquired after
you?”
“Is it? She enquired? Really? So, they
have that much freedom for women?”, asked I, greatly surprised.
“The way you have learnt what her name is,
she has learnt yours. But, don’t do anything foolishly. She is a highly
liberated girl, having a mind and vitality of her own. The way she questions me
regarding v arious things are proof enough to show how deep she has though of
and has a knowledge of very many things. Sometime I would struggle to answer
her queries”, - said Valluvan.
“Is she very much educated?”
“Not Education as such. Some have the
capacity to think and contemplate. For the educated, the ‘well’ within springs
further and further. But, it happens only some times. for many, Education turns
out to be the ‘stagnant-point’ of thinking. Also, there are several uneducated
men who can think… once upon a time I myself gad been ignorant of alphabets,
remember?” _ said Valluvan.
“But, you have learnt many a thing through
listening to others”, I exclaimed. “ I will not accept that you were ever an
illiterate even if you did not know reading and writing. I too am an illiterate
only. But, I do not possess your…”
“ _ the fact that you have lack of
confidence in your own self can become the foundation of your progress… you
know.. it can act as a stepping stone to your success. Learning depends on
things like Where, in Which place one gets it, What one gets out of Whom etc.
we should keep contemplating on all that which we see and hear”.
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